Asking, seeking, and knocking came naturally to me when I was younger. Even into my early twenties I was limited in my capacity enough to reflexively ask, seek, and knock when it came to soliciting help from others and from God. But over time I’ve found it easier to put too much stock in my experiences, skills, and talents. Beginning in my mid-20’s my sense of self-sufficiency grew. With each passing year I became economically, socially, relationally, and spiritually stronger. And while this was experienced as a tremendous blessing, I’ve come to see how it also created its own set of problems.
When we essentially believe we possess the resources necessary to “do life” effectively, we undercut the need of trusting God. “I don’t need to trust God. I’ve got a pretty good handle on things. And I’ve even thought through some recovery options should things go south.” As these strategies of self-sufficiency took hold of my heart in my late 20’s and early 30’s, I paid a price spiritually. Namely, there was a noticeable lack of vibrancy and power in my walk with God. My relationship with God didn’t come to a screeching halt, but it limped along. And it did so not because God was withholding good things that would have been a blessing to me, but because I never thought to ask. I mistakenly thought that maturity in Christ looked like self-sufficiency. In truth, immaturity in Christ looks like self-sufficiency.
We must never lose the awareness of our need before God. The only way to sustain a vibrant walk with Christ is to continue the spiritual disciplines of asking, seeking, and knocking.